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Jessica Winslett's avatar

Reading this brought back so many memories of my own experience. We tried for 3 years, had a doctor tell me I would never get pregnant and then finally found a fertility doctor who told me β€œuh, no, I’ll get you pregnant!” And she did. My miracle boy is now a 20 year old man. I’m wishing you all the luck in the world, I hope your dream comes true!

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Cailee Fischer's avatar

That’s incredible!!! ❀️ thank you sm 🫢🏻

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Millie Burchfield's avatar

All the love in the world from one member of the dang club to another. These words encapsulate this experience perfectly and realistically. Your little nugget will be so thankful to know they were sought after so intentionally. Sending hugs, prayers, and baby dust πŸ’›πŸ’›πŸ’›

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Cailee Fischer's avatar

Thank you so much! ❀️πŸ₯Ή

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Allison Chase's avatar

Our stories and timelines are so similar, thank you for being so brave to share this what feels like a never ending heartbreaking journey. I won’t lie, I think part of me has given up hope, my heart hurts so bad.

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Kelsey's avatar

It took my husband and I 7 years to have our first baby. Trying on our own being told we were β€œyoung and everything was fine” to finally taking it in our own hands to start fertility testing and realizing we also were diagnosed with β€œunexplained infertility.” Covid delayed us for a long time too, 3 failed IUIs (wishing our clinic would have told us to start IVF sooner too like you’re choosing such a GREAT idea!!) 3 rounds of IVF, first 2 lost at 5/6 weeks and third at 18 weeks. 4th round gave us our sweet girl who was worth everything we did to get her here!! We are now 30 weeks pregnant with a miracle no IVF needed which to me is so rare because I know it’s possible but NEVER expected it to happen to us. My point of it all is that all the heartbreak, the physical, mental and emotional toll it took us to get here I would do it all over again in a heartbeat!! Even all the loss and stress because it makes you realize what’s important in life and that you can make it through the hardest times. I love that you keep us informed so we can cheer you on from afar and will send you all the baby dust and eat the fries with you and celebrate the best moments to come!

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Cailee Fischer's avatar

Wow that is incredible I am so happy for you!!!!! & thank you so so much. I very much appreciate your support! ❀️

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Aleecia Portillo's avatar

Thank you for sharing ✨ it means a lot as someone who just got done with their 4th medicated cycle. My husband is relocating to a different city and I can’t move with him right now. So maybe this break will give me a chance to just recollect myself 🀞🏽🫢🏼

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Tatiana Bazzani's avatar

You are amazing Cailee !! Praying for you and your family always πŸ’•πŸ«ΆπŸΌ

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Cailee Fischer's avatar

Thank you so much ❀️❀️❀️

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Tatiana Bazzani's avatar

You’re amazing !! Praying for you and your future family βœ¨πŸ’•πŸ«ΆπŸΌ

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Katherine Testa's avatar

I really appreciate you sharing, I understand the vulnerability. We have a really similar ttc journey, it's actually kinda crazy how similar. I want you to know how impactful it was for me to ready today, as you know how isolating this journey is. .Thank you so much. We decided to take another break before IVF. I am wishing all the baby dust your way. Xox

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Samantha's avatar

Oh how I wish I couldn’t relate to your words so much. So painful. So isolating. So incredibly exhausting. Hate this club, but I’m rooting for us girl🀍

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Cailee Fischer's avatar

Rooting for you so hard!!! 🫢🏻

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Maddie's avatar

Cailee this is so beautifully written. Thank you for sharing your story and these vulnerable feelings that so many of us in the TTC community feel but are sometimes hard to articulate. Wishing you all the best on your IVF journey 🫢 we are all rooting so hard for you!

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Cailee Fischer's avatar

Thank you so much!!! 😭

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Mackenzie Ballard's avatar

I’m glad you shared what you’ve been through, it does make it feel less isolating for the rest of us dealing with infertility. I have a 3 year old now (after 1 loss), and now I’m dealing with more infertility struggles. Ectopic is truly terrifying, sorry you went through that.

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Sarah's avatar

I’m so sorry you’re going through this. My fertility was fraught in the beginning and I understand the emotional rollercoaster you go through. I remember feeling guilty when I got pregnant on my first try because so many people struggle and then my first pregnancy was an ectopic and the surgeon (a coworker of mine) miraculously saved the tube. It was the end of a very long career for him and he said it was the first tube he managed to salvage so it is so rare for that to happen. My second pregnancy I lost in the second trimester after several normal ultrasounds with a heartbeat. I was rocked to my core. Like you, I’ve always wanted to be a mother and I work as an L&D nurse and going to work every day seeing women delivering babies was emotional torture and I told my husband if we had another loss I’d quit. We ended up having two healthy boys, a third loss, and then a third little boy. I am so hopeful you will hold a baby in your arms soon. You will be such a wonderful mother no matter what happens. Persist on the path and try to find solice and peace wherever you can. I’m here to talk if you ever need to.

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Deven Ryan's avatar

Wow, i didn’t know that i needed to read this! As a β€œgeriatric” (38) trying to get pregnant and going on month 6 of no success, you captured the feelings perfectly. Thanks for making me feel seen ❀️ sending you so much love and baby fairy dust!

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Carlee Charles's avatar

Crying at how relatable this is… we’ve been trying for 5 years and took a year off too (the most draining journey ever). Last year was a β€œno meds and just see how things go naturally” year to ease back into the exhausting cycle of TTC, but as of January of this year we’re in a cycle of inducing ovulation with Letrezol and have seen our first positive ovulation tests (which is so exciting for a fellow PCOS girly)! My sister just got pregnant on her first try and it’s been a rough few weeks of emotions, but this post has really proved to me that this may feel like an isolating journey, but I am not alone… thank you, Cailee, for sharing your story and let’s bathe in the baby dust together! 🩷 Sending prayers and blessings your way!

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Kelsey Sowder's avatar

Infertility is so fucking unfair. I’m sorry you’re in this club and I wish you success in IVF ❀️

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Gabii's avatar

Infertility is the hardest and loneliest journey to go on. Your content gave me so comfort and let me know I was a bit less alone. I’m hoping everything goes well with IVF and you get your rainbow baby. β™₯️

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