What it's like to want something so deeply, and still not have it. The inside look into my journey through PCOS, pregnancy loss, and starting IVF. π€
Reading this brought back so many memories of my own experience. We tried for 3 years, had a doctor tell me I would never get pregnant and then finally found a fertility doctor who told me βuh, no, Iβll get you pregnant!β And she did. My miracle boy is now a 20 year old man. Iβm wishing you all the luck in the world, I hope your dream comes true!
All the love in the world from one member of the dang club to another. These words encapsulate this experience perfectly and realistically. Your little nugget will be so thankful to know they were sought after so intentionally. Sending hugs, prayers, and baby dust πππ
Our stories and timelines are so similar, thank you for being so brave to share this what feels like a never ending heartbreaking journey. I wonβt lie, I think part of me has given up hope, my heart hurts so bad.
It took my husband and I 7 years to have our first baby. Trying on our own being told we were βyoung and everything was fineβ to finally taking it in our own hands to start fertility testing and realizing we also were diagnosed with βunexplained infertility.β Covid delayed us for a long time too, 3 failed IUIs (wishing our clinic would have told us to start IVF sooner too like youβre choosing such a GREAT idea!!) 3 rounds of IVF, first 2 lost at 5/6 weeks and third at 18 weeks. 4th round gave us our sweet girl who was worth everything we did to get her here!! We are now 30 weeks pregnant with a miracle no IVF needed which to me is so rare because I know itβs possible but NEVER expected it to happen to us. My point of it all is that all the heartbreak, the physical, mental and emotional toll it took us to get here I would do it all over again in a heartbeat!! Even all the loss and stress because it makes you realize whatβs important in life and that you can make it through the hardest times. I love that you keep us informed so we can cheer you on from afar and will send you all the baby dust and eat the fries with you and celebrate the best moments to come!
Thank you for sharing β¨ it means a lot as someone who just got done with their 4th medicated cycle. My husband is relocating to a different city and I canβt move with him right now. So maybe this break will give me a chance to just recollect myself π€π½π«ΆπΌ
I really appreciate you sharing, I understand the vulnerability. We have a really similar ttc journey, it's actually kinda crazy how similar. I want you to know how impactful it was for me to ready today, as you know how isolating this journey is. .Thank you so much. We decided to take another break before IVF. I am wishing all the baby dust your way. Xox
Oh how I wish I couldnβt relate to your words so much. So painful. So isolating. So incredibly exhausting. Hate this club, but Iβm rooting for us girlπ€
Cailee this is so beautifully written. Thank you for sharing your story and these vulnerable feelings that so many of us in the TTC community feel but are sometimes hard to articulate. Wishing you all the best on your IVF journey π«Ά we are all rooting so hard for you!
Iβm glad you shared what youβve been through, it does make it feel less isolating for the rest of us dealing with infertility. I have a 3 year old now (after 1 loss), and now Iβm dealing with more infertility struggles. Ectopic is truly terrifying, sorry you went through that.
Iβm so sorry youβre going through this. My fertility was fraught in the beginning and I understand the emotional rollercoaster you go through. I remember feeling guilty when I got pregnant on my first try because so many people struggle and then my first pregnancy was an ectopic and the surgeon (a coworker of mine) miraculously saved the tube. It was the end of a very long career for him and he said it was the first tube he managed to salvage so it is so rare for that to happen. My second pregnancy I lost in the second trimester after several normal ultrasounds with a heartbeat. I was rocked to my core. Like you, Iβve always wanted to be a mother and I work as an L&D nurse and going to work every day seeing women delivering babies was emotional torture and I told my husband if we had another loss Iβd quit. We ended up having two healthy boys, a third loss, and then a third little boy. I am so hopeful you will hold a baby in your arms soon. You will be such a wonderful mother no matter what happens. Persist on the path and try to find solice and peace wherever you can. Iβm here to talk if you ever need to.
Wow, i didnβt know that i needed to read this! As a βgeriatricβ (38) trying to get pregnant and going on month 6 of no success, you captured the feelings perfectly. Thanks for making me feel seen β€οΈ sending you so much love and baby fairy dust!
Infertility is the hardest and loneliest journey to go on. Your content gave me so comfort and let me know I was a bit less alone. Iβm hoping everything goes well with IVF and you get your rainbow baby. β₯οΈ
Reading this brought back so many memories of my own experience. We tried for 3 years, had a doctor tell me I would never get pregnant and then finally found a fertility doctor who told me βuh, no, Iβll get you pregnant!β And she did. My miracle boy is now a 20 year old man. Iβm wishing you all the luck in the world, I hope your dream comes true!
Thatβs incredible!!! β€οΈ thank you sm π«Άπ»
All the love in the world from one member of the dang club to another. These words encapsulate this experience perfectly and realistically. Your little nugget will be so thankful to know they were sought after so intentionally. Sending hugs, prayers, and baby dust πππ
Thank you so much! β€οΈπ₯Ή
Our stories and timelines are so similar, thank you for being so brave to share this what feels like a never ending heartbreaking journey. I wonβt lie, I think part of me has given up hope, my heart hurts so bad.
It took my husband and I 7 years to have our first baby. Trying on our own being told we were βyoung and everything was fineβ to finally taking it in our own hands to start fertility testing and realizing we also were diagnosed with βunexplained infertility.β Covid delayed us for a long time too, 3 failed IUIs (wishing our clinic would have told us to start IVF sooner too like youβre choosing such a GREAT idea!!) 3 rounds of IVF, first 2 lost at 5/6 weeks and third at 18 weeks. 4th round gave us our sweet girl who was worth everything we did to get her here!! We are now 30 weeks pregnant with a miracle no IVF needed which to me is so rare because I know itβs possible but NEVER expected it to happen to us. My point of it all is that all the heartbreak, the physical, mental and emotional toll it took us to get here I would do it all over again in a heartbeat!! Even all the loss and stress because it makes you realize whatβs important in life and that you can make it through the hardest times. I love that you keep us informed so we can cheer you on from afar and will send you all the baby dust and eat the fries with you and celebrate the best moments to come!
Wow that is incredible I am so happy for you!!!!! & thank you so so much. I very much appreciate your support! β€οΈ
Thank you for sharing β¨ it means a lot as someone who just got done with their 4th medicated cycle. My husband is relocating to a different city and I canβt move with him right now. So maybe this break will give me a chance to just recollect myself π€π½π«ΆπΌ
You are amazing Cailee !! Praying for you and your family always ππ«ΆπΌ
Thank you so much β€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈ
Youβre amazing !! Praying for you and your future family β¨ππ«ΆπΌ
I really appreciate you sharing, I understand the vulnerability. We have a really similar ttc journey, it's actually kinda crazy how similar. I want you to know how impactful it was for me to ready today, as you know how isolating this journey is. .Thank you so much. We decided to take another break before IVF. I am wishing all the baby dust your way. Xox
Oh how I wish I couldnβt relate to your words so much. So painful. So isolating. So incredibly exhausting. Hate this club, but Iβm rooting for us girlπ€
Rooting for you so hard!!! π«Άπ»
Cailee this is so beautifully written. Thank you for sharing your story and these vulnerable feelings that so many of us in the TTC community feel but are sometimes hard to articulate. Wishing you all the best on your IVF journey π«Ά we are all rooting so hard for you!
Thank you so much!!! π
Iβm glad you shared what youβve been through, it does make it feel less isolating for the rest of us dealing with infertility. I have a 3 year old now (after 1 loss), and now Iβm dealing with more infertility struggles. Ectopic is truly terrifying, sorry you went through that.
Iβm so sorry youβre going through this. My fertility was fraught in the beginning and I understand the emotional rollercoaster you go through. I remember feeling guilty when I got pregnant on my first try because so many people struggle and then my first pregnancy was an ectopic and the surgeon (a coworker of mine) miraculously saved the tube. It was the end of a very long career for him and he said it was the first tube he managed to salvage so it is so rare for that to happen. My second pregnancy I lost in the second trimester after several normal ultrasounds with a heartbeat. I was rocked to my core. Like you, Iβve always wanted to be a mother and I work as an L&D nurse and going to work every day seeing women delivering babies was emotional torture and I told my husband if we had another loss Iβd quit. We ended up having two healthy boys, a third loss, and then a third little boy. I am so hopeful you will hold a baby in your arms soon. You will be such a wonderful mother no matter what happens. Persist on the path and try to find solice and peace wherever you can. Iβm here to talk if you ever need to.
Wow, i didnβt know that i needed to read this! As a βgeriatricβ (38) trying to get pregnant and going on month 6 of no success, you captured the feelings perfectly. Thanks for making me feel seen β€οΈ sending you so much love and baby fairy dust!
Crying at how relatable this isβ¦ weβve been trying for 5 years and took a year off too (the most draining journey ever). Last year was a βno meds and just see how things go naturallyβ year to ease back into the exhausting cycle of TTC, but as of January of this year weβre in a cycle of inducing ovulation with Letrezol and have seen our first positive ovulation tests (which is so exciting for a fellow PCOS girly)! My sister just got pregnant on her first try and itβs been a rough few weeks of emotions, but this post has really proved to me that this may feel like an isolating journey, but I am not aloneβ¦ thank you, Cailee, for sharing your story and letβs bathe in the baby dust together! π©· Sending prayers and blessings your way!
Infertility is so fucking unfair. Iβm sorry youβre in this club and I wish you success in IVF β€οΈ
Infertility is the hardest and loneliest journey to go on. Your content gave me so comfort and let me know I was a bit less alone. Iβm hoping everything goes well with IVF and you get your rainbow baby. β₯οΈ